Fall 2023 Manicure Inspirations

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Disclaimer: These products were pr gifted  by various nail polish brands . Thank you so much for sending these products over! All opinions are 100% my own.

Fall is in full effect and today I'm going to share a few of my recent manicures. I love this time of year so much because of all the vampy colors of the season.

China Glaze Serpentine Collection: Halloween 2023

I'm not a fan of snakes at all, actually I'm terrified of all of them to be honest. The colors in the collection are gorgeous.

China Glaze Gold Hearted and Caution Might Bite

Morgan Taylor Change of Pace: Fall 2023 Collection 

I was introduced to Morgan Taylor through PR last year and I've been a fan ever since. Look at all these gorgeous Fall inspired colors!

Morgan Taylor Stay off the Trail and All Good in the Woods

Zoya Enamored Collection: Fall 2023

Is it really Fall without a collection from Zoya? Over the years I can't think of a Zoya collection that I haven't liked. Their polish theme hit the mark and go great with each season. I have to admit I look forward to the Fall Collection each year.

Zoya Pamela and Twinklette 

Zoya Enamored Collection: Fall 2023

I love that Zoya included sparkle polishes for their Fall Collection this year. I can wear these polishes over a solid color or alone on my my nails.

Zoya Murphy 

Kiss Salon Acrylic Natural Long Nails

When I use fake nails I've been using these nails Long Acrylic nails by Kiss. If you use your rewards at CVS, you can get a pack of these at really amazing price. I think I paid maybe $1.50 each for a few packs if these back in the Spring.

Fall 2023 PR Haul

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Disclaimer: These products were pr gifted and gifted by various brands. Thank you so much for sending these products over! All opinions are 100% my own.

I know the last few posts have been about my health and overall life updates, but today I want to share a few of the recent products I received. I received some of these products when I was in the hosptial and others once I was home.

This collection was released back in July and Pacifica was kind enough to send over the collection. 

Pacifica Glow Baby Collection

Near the end of September I was invited to attend a Zoom meeting introducing some of the additions to the New Glow Skincare Collection. Pacifica also sent over the collection! I love using these products so far and they smell so good!

Derma E 

Pixi Beauty 

Bliss 

When I was in the hosptial the first time during the end of August beginning of September, Bliss sent over a get well package full of skincare goodies. How thoughtful and kind of them!

Morgan Taylor Change of Pace Fall Collection: Fall 2023

Zoya Enamored Collection: Fall 2023

Tarte Cosmetics 

Tarte sent over this bag of Goodies. I thought it was so sweet of them to send me a teacher tote since I work with children. 

2023 Holiday Gift Sets

Urban Decay Cosmetics

Wow what an amazing gift from Urban Decay! 

Therapy

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Some of you may have wondered with everything I've experienced the past few months have I pursued therapy. The answer is yes. I  like to think of myself as a woman of God and I pray constantly and keep faith even when I feel lost. In addition to my faith I also feel that therapy helps me cope. Over the years therapy, has helped me put things in perspective in my life. This time I think I do have a lot of work to do in trying to balance my life and cope with my thoughts and feelings.

One thing I realized is when to know to walk away. I mentioned I recently started a new job a few months ago, but Friday I officially resigned. To make a long story short, no job is worth being mistreated, taken advantage, and making my health a last priority. I was telling my therapist that I felt free when I quit. 

My therapist gave me insight on struggling with ruminating thoughts...I thought I'd share it with you all incase you struggle with the same issue. now that my brain is In a safe space. It's like Alexa...when she says to much and you would say Alexa stop, the same applies with my thoughts. I never thought about it like that, but it makes a lot sense.

Monday is a clean slate, I have a new job. Still doing what I love. I'll post more about that in an upcoming post. I'm looking forward to this new opportunity.  

Health Update: Follow Up Doctor's Appointment

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Before I start today's post, I want to thank everyone that sent me messages, etc concerning my recent health. I've been going through a lot lately and it does help to know there are kind people that care.

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday and I had a pretty good visit. No covid 🥳 Pneumonia is clearing well. My lungs sound clear and my heart sounds good. My doctor said I'm healing well and continue to get rest and drink fluids for the rest of the week. 

I feel so blessed that I'm feeling better. Last month I could've died the first time I was hospitalized with pneumonia and sepsis, that caused a high blood sugar. The second time I was hospitalized I had both pneumonia and covid. I was so sick and I've been through a lot personally and medically. God has a purpose for me to still be here and for that I'm grateful. 

Back in the Hospital for Pneumonia Again and Covid

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As for today's title you can see that I'm back in the hosptial. I was only home for 10 days before I had a medical relapse. Thursday I felt badly and noticed my cough came back. The cough was bad this time I started throwing up at home. I had another fever and chills. I decided it was time to go to the ER that night.

I was feeling miserable by time the ambulance got to my house, but not as bad or disoriented as last time. I threw up again when got to the ER.

This is my first time getting covid. I'm unsure of how I got it since I wear my mask. The only time I left my house was Tuesday to go to my primary doctor for my follow up. I wore my mask. The ER doctor said since my body was immunocompromised from the pneumonia it was easy to get Covid.

I still feel pretty badly, but I was told that I shouldn't be here 15 days like last time. This time I'm going to get more rest. Hopefully I won't have another pneumonia or covid relaspe.

If anyone wants to help me financially sustain until I go back to work, please consider donating to gofundmepage. I would greatly appreciate it.

Talk to everyone hopefully soon

Pilar

15 Day Hospitalization with Pneumonia

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I'm surprised I even knew who I was or why I taking this picture. My temperature was 104 by time I got to the ER. 

Almost two months after my mama died I wanted to share an update. First I want to thank those who reached out to me. Your comfort love and support means so much to me. Words can't express the gratitude that I feel. Life can prepare you for many things, but I'm not sure if one is ever truly prepared to lose a parent(s).  I said when my mom died, I was not okay. I'm still not okay, but this time is for an additional reason. 

They quickly put me on a breathing treatment soon after I arrived at the ER. This mask is so uncomfortable and it actually caused me to have anxiety. I think I was getting overwhelmed by all the air in the mask.

Puffy face and super sick. I didn't even realize my throat and face were puffy until the doctor mentioned it. 

Losing my mom, starting a new job, basic life stressors, general emotional feelings took a major toll on me that led me to a recent 15 day hospital stay. I just got home this afternoon. I had pneumonia and I didn't even know it. I was feeling sick that week, but I attributed being sick to the elements I listed above. The doctors were so taken a back of how sick I was, they thought I had the new variant of Covid (Thankfully I tested negative each time I was tested for Covid). I had a few doctors tell me that I was a very sick young lady.

I hate needles in all shapes and forms. This apparently wasn't my choice. 

The Sunday that I went to the hospital I was delirious with a fever of 104 and totally confused of what was going on. I was so out it that one of the EMT's had to carry me onto the stretcher. I passed out in the ambulance a few times on the way to the hospital. Later at the ER and during my hospital stay I was told that if the EMT's would've gotten to me a day later I might not have made it.

For those wondering I was on the critical care unit which is called IICU. Meaning I was really sick, but a step down from intensive care unit. 

During my hospital stay there was one day, I was mad. Crying tears mad. I felt helpless sitting in my hospital bed wishing that EMT's wouldn't have found me in time. I was hurting so much emotionally. I'm doing everything that God wants me to do, and I still end up here in the hospital. I honestly think this was God's way of saying I needed a rest. Believe me life will humble you or show you when you need to slow down. I don't think I truly meant that wished EMT'S wouldn't have found me in time because I called 911 for help. It's hard to cope when you feel your life's in shambles. 

I've never faked anything I've gone through that I've shared on my blog and I'm not about to start now. This is why I decided to show these photos me dealing with pneumonia. My hair looks like a birds nest and I'm completely exhausted. 

I thought about my mama and how if she were here she wouldn't want me to be sitting in that hospital bed feeling completely sorry for myself. Give myself grace, kindness, and understanding yes, but wanting to give up no.

Even though I feel my mama died far too young at 58 her life was a good life fulfilled. Her life is sadly over, but I know that she would want me to go on and live a fulfilled life and be happy. I know its going to take some time for me to be on the mend. I think my body is healing even though I'm still not feeling well. I want to rest and sleep. My lungs have mostly cleared, but I get winded easily. I also have to go for numerous follow ups in the upcoming months to make sure my lungs are okay. I can't write this post without discussing the amazing doctors and nurses that saved my life and helped me feel better. My mom worked in nursing, and like many people I feel doctors, nurses, nurse aids, EMT's, housekeeping etc are our unsung heros that don't wear capes. I was truly treated with care and compassion by the hospital staff. 

I was so happy to share that I found a new job, but right now I have to take a medical leave. If anyone wants to help me financially sustain until I go back to work, please consider donating to gofundmepage. I would greatly appreciate it.

Talk to everyone hopefully soon

Pilar

Mommy I'll Miss You

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I'm going to take a hiatus off Social Media. I'll still be here, but I probably won't be posting as much. Right now I need to focus on my mental health. This afternoon my mother, my beautiful angel died. Honestly no I'm not okay and that's to be expected. I'm hurting emotionally and physically. This is truly the type of pain I have to turn to God and pray.

Mommy I miss you, and I love you so much 🤍 Sleep well my angel.