Wednesday, August 21, 2019

My Life in August 2019

Hello Everyone!

The end of the month is almost here so it's time for a monthly Lifestyle post. I should be back to posting regularly in September. I miss you all and I miss blogging! I know this lifestyle post is a little early this month lol.

Last month I celebrated my 6th Blogiversary and I included my PR Haul. Thank you again everyone for all the amazing products!

Enjoying time at the park

Look at that beautiful fountain

Nature view

I updated everyone on how I'm doing see link  at the end of this post.

I'm not Catholic, but I visited a beautiful Catholic Church and met a kind Priest. I'm Baptist, but I found a true inner peace here. 

I decided to take another chance and try something from Starbucks: Vanilla Bean Crรจme Frappuccino. It's ok, but it tastes more like a watery milkshake with vanilla. More like ice milk. 

 I tried to drink that Vanilla Bean Crรฉme Frappuccino and about midway through the drink just tasted like watery milk and hint of vanilla. I took that drink right back to Starbucks and they gave me a Fresher instead ๐Ÿ™‚

I love Urban Decay products, so thank you for the like on Instagram!

New Beauty Releases 

These Rose Water Skincare products from Garnier Skinactives smell so good!

Covergirl Trublend Undercover Concealer 

Urban Decay Stay Naked 24 Hour Foundation

Thank you Derma E for the skincare goodies! *Product Information courtesy of

This clinically proven formula helps to improve the appearance of scars and encourage healthy skin. It may help improve the appearance and texture of sunburns, chemical burns, industrial burns, old scars, new scars, stretchmarks as it moisturizes the skin. This refreshing, oil-free formula goes on clear and will not stain clothes.

My Thoughts

This is my second jar of scar gel. I had a insect bite a back in June that left a scar on my arm. I started using this Scar Gel and I noticed results with the scar fading within a week. After a few weeks of using this scar gel I my scar is almost gone. This scar gel is also great for soothing sunburns. ๐Ÿ’œ

This lightweight day moisturizer helps to naturally support collagen health while protecting skin from pollutants and impurities.

My Thoughts

I've noticed some hyperpigmentation on my cheeks, but the Vitamin C Renewing Moisturizer had helped my uneven skin. Vitamin C has many benefits, and I love how radiant my skin looks when I used this moisturizer. You can also use this moisturizer under your makeup ๐Ÿ™‚

See you all in September!

August 2019 Posts

Tuesday, August 13, 2019

Mental Health Check-In

Hello Everyone!

After last months ER visit for anxiety and depression. I had to acknowledge that I wasn't feeling okay.  Last month was a wake up call. I didn't like seeing my blood pressure so high because of anxiety.  I'm still struggling with anxiety and depression, but I take everyday with patience and better self care. I know that I said I'm taking a small break, which I am. I wanted to update everyone on how I'm doing. I'm still not doing well as I want to, but I'm not in an Emergency Room. I think this time dealing with anxiety and depression is worse because of letting things bottle upside. I guess it was just a matter of time before I felt like I was crashing. I can't thank you all enough for all of your well wishes.

I had so many triggers last month leading to me feeling like I was falling to pieces. I haven't felt like I did a few weeks ago in over 3 years. I'm working on not letting my triggers overwhelm me.

Since I've been in this depressive state I had a tendency to overindulge in Krispy Kreme Glazed Donuts. Time to put those glazed donuts away and get back to my exercise routine. Since it's so hot and humid all day I doubt if I'll be walking outside. I'll probably go to the mall and walk. I want to get back into cardio as well.

I had no plans to stop going to counseling, but right now I need counseling. I usually space my appointments, but I think I might start going every two weeks. I think talking about my feelings is healthy and therapeutic. Talking helps me keep things into perspective.

I've been on medication for depression and anxiety off and on for about 10 years. I started taking antidepressants again last year. I've noticed that medication does help, but I have to learn to balance my life better. I will talk with you all soon. Don't forget to check out the other two posts I posted this week. Links are below.

My Life in July 2019

6th Blogiversary Gifts and PR Haul

Sunday, August 11, 2019

6th Blogiversary Gifts and PR Haul

Hello Everyone!

Before I took my hiatus, I mentioned that I would show my Blogiversary gifts in an a upcoming post. I had some PR Samples, so I wanted to add them in this post well. Thank you so much everyone and the companies that sent over products! I'm still taking a little break, but I did want to share the two posts for today.

Blogiversary Gifts

Thank you to everyone that gave me a Blogiversary Gift! I also used a gift card I was given as gift from a makeup client to get a few things. 

- Urban Decay Stay Naked Weightless Liquid: 
  Foundation 60WR

- Morphe Babe Faves 15 Eye Brushes

- Tarte Face Tape Foundation: 47H Tan-Deep Honey

- Tarte Shape Tape Contour Concealer: 47H Tan-Deep

- Pixi by Petra + Maryam Maquillage Eye & Lip Kit

- Pixi by Petra Endless Silky Eye Pen: Matte Sienna

- L'Orรฉal True Match Super Blendable Powder: W7
  Caramel Beige

- CoverGirl truBLEND Base Business Face Primer:
  Color Neutralizing

- Super Stay Full Coverage, Long Lasting Under Eye
  Concealer: Caramel

- CoverGirl Trublend Undercover: Concealer D100
  Golden Caramel 

Pixi Beauty Summer Glow Palette and Glow Mist

A few weeks ago Pixi sent me a few makeup products. The Shimmer Palette is so pretty and I've heard good things about the Glow Mist.

Chique Tools Studio Brushes

I've feature Chique Tools before on my blog. I really love this brand of brushes and the quality is amazing. You can find these new Chique Studio Brushes can be found at Big Lots! 

Zoya Sensual Collection: Fall 2019   

The polishes in this collection are beautiful! I plan on displaying the polishes closer to fall. The Sensual Collection is now on

Urban Decay on Tour 2019

I have to share this good news with you all! A few weeks ago I was invite to attend the Urban Decay UD on Tour in Charleston SC! My first brand event! Unfortunately I wasn't able to attend, but UD was kind enough to send me my gift bag from the event! ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ’œ

Derma E Essentials BB Creams

I'm can't wait to try these BB Creams from Derma E! If you follow me blog and Instagram, you already know how much I love Derma E's skincare products. I think these BB Creams are going to be a good addition to my makeup routine.

I'm forever grateful for all these beautiful gifts for my 6th Blogiversary and PR Haul. Thank you again!!

Don't forget to check out the other post for today, My Life in July 2019.

If you missed my Happy 6th Blogiversary to Beauty and More by Pilar! You can view that post HERE

My Life in July 2019

Hello Everyone!

I'm still taking taking time off my blog, but I did want to post my July 2019 Lifestyle post and second post for today as well. The last part of July was disastrous. I had anxiety attacks, depression issues and everything began to be overwhelming. I want to thank everyone that has left so many kind comments, emails etc. to check up on me. I truly appreciate it.

I drank so much water during July. The heat was unbearable. 

I also had an occasional Starbucks Refresher drink

This is Gabby!

I recently visited a nursing home and while I was there I met Gabby the Goat.

Gabby comes to the nursing home for pet therapy to the patients 



6th Blogiversary Glam. My 6th Blogiversary was on July 27th.

When your Granny literally lives 5 minutes away from Target. I didn't go in, but noticed how close my grandma lives near Target when I visited her last month.

I always thought this was a nice post office even if it's still my least favorite place to visit. 

Anxiety Sucks 

Me, visibly upset after having an anxiety attack. The end of July wasn't the best.

I drove and parked near Lake Murray to sit and watch the water. It was so peaceful. That is what I need right now.

Don't forget to check out the other post for today, 6th Blogiversary Gifts and PR Haul

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Anxiety and Announcement

Hello Everyone

I hate anxiety

Today's post is very hard for me to write. Friday night I spent hours in the ER due to an anxiety attack and high blood pressure.

I walked in the ER feeling completely helpless and in tears. Truth be told I was in hysterics. I felt like I couldnt breathe then I started hyperventilating. I thought I was going to throw up and pass out. The world around me became closed in and I didn't know what to do. I wrote about emotional self care a few weeks ago, and I realized that this past week I haven't been doing that.

This needle was very painful

I've shared a few of my personal struggles over the last few months. Friday night I felt like life just became too overwhelming.  The nurses were very caring and concerned, but the doctor I had was rude and uncaring. He was most concerned with the shift changing and ready to leave. He had the mental health specialist talk with me which was also not much of a help. She was very kind, but not helpful. I have a BA degree in psychology so I know how these things go. They didn't get my blood pressure down, and basically sent me on my way with a cup of water that asked for hours ago and only received when I was getting ready to leave. I felt just as badly as I did when I left the ER as I did when I first got there.

Very blood pressure was 159/123 almost stroke level

Life, people, family everything is overwhelming right now. I mean everything. My mom is always my support and I'm glad she's helping me through this difficult time. I do want to thank everyone that left me such kind words of encouragement and concern on Instagram. You're comments haven't gone unnoticed and I truly appreciate your thoughts and prayers.

I feel thankful for all my makeup clients that understand their cancellations for the upcoming week. I will be back to creating your makeup looks very soon.  As I mentioned in my 6th Blogiversary Post, I will be taking a social media break.

I took this picture in the ER, to show the realness of anxiety. Anxiety is real, depression is real. Mental health issues are real. As you can see I'm still very visibly upset. Please be kind to people. They may be going through a struggle you know nothing about...

I'm unsure of when I'll be back on social media. Maybe a week or more. Right now I'm not sure. I will be back though. I don't want to put anymore pressure on myself than I have to. 

This morning I drove to Lake Murray and parked to clear my mind. I'm still having anxiety and depression, but I find peace here. Trees are supposed to symbolize a new start. So here's to new beginnings. Talk with you all soon.

July 2019 Posts

Blue Glitter Mermaid Eyes

Creative Patriotic Makeup

Emotional Self Care


Current Beauty Wishlist

Things That Make Me Happy As An Adult

Get to Know Me!

Summer Glam 2019

Happy 6th Blogiversary to Beauty and More by Pilar!

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Happy 6th Blogiversary to Beauty and More by Pilar!

Hello Everyone!

This week is a very special week for my blog! It's my 6th Blogiversary! My Blogiversary is actually this Saturday July 27th. I've learned so many aspects about blogging since I began this journey in 2013. Today also marks my 700th post! 6 years blogging and 700 :)

Every year since I've started blogging has been special to me. Life has a way of throwing you curve balls that can make it difficult to finish something you've started. I've had numerous curve balls including surviving domestic violence, self doubt, depression and anxiety just to name a few. Those have been some of the few unpleasant things I've experience throughout my blogging journey so far. I've had wonderful things happen as well meeting other bloggers, collaborating with amazing companies, creating my own original content, and learning new things as I go along the way.

As I mentioned I discuss various topics on my blog, but my passion is makeup. I love creating makeup looks for myself and my makeup clients. One of this misconceptions is that you're wearing makeup to hide something. Not true, I love makeup as a form to express my creativity and my aristry.

Makeup is my passion

A lot of people in my person life don't know that I'm a blogger, but to for those people in my personal life that know I thank you for supporting and encouraging me these past 6 years. You are truly appreciated and loved! Thank you so much for the beautiful gifts! I didn't get a chance to post my gifts look for that in a later post!

I want to thank all the brands that I have worked with past and present. I appreciate you sending products, sponsoring, and valuing my opinion to share with my audience.

PR Samples from:
Urban Decay 
Original Beauty Box 

PR Samples from:
Derma E
Goose Creek Candle

PR Samples From 
Chique Tools
Fab Fit Fun

Last but not least, I want to thank all of you that visit, read, and comment on my posts! Your support over the past 6 years is greatly appreciated! I love you all, and God bless ๐Ÿ’• My schedule has been so hectic lately, so I'll probably take a week or so off social media. Talk with you all soon! 

July 2019 Posts

Blue Glitter Mermaid Eyes

Creative Patriotic Makeup

Emotional Self Care


Current Beauty Wishlist

Things That Make Me Happy As An Adult 

Get to Know Me!

My Life in August 2019

Hello Everyone! The end of the month is almost here so it's time for a monthly Lifestyle post. I should be back to posting regula...